Tuesday, September 27, 2005
I know no one checks this anymore but here is an update. since april i have...had a baby...yeah ok you all knew i was going to so that is no news. september 11th i had Baby Bronco and he is beautiful. He makes me happy...and he is about the only thing that does. I went through a small bout of depression after I had him but that has passed. Anymore I am happy until Bronco cub opens his mouth. I wish he wouldn't speak...he drives me crazy. It's weird though cause the whole time I was pregnant he would ask me if i was going to be one of those women who turn out to only love their baby and hate the father. I thought that was absurd! BUT...he is a retard! he doesn't think...he isn't the nicest guy...and he drives me crazy! I don't know how much longer I can handle him. I need him to go away for a while...take a trip...for like...a week. I don't know how I put up with his shit when i was pregnant crazy...maybe because i felt dependant on him it was easier to deal with the BS...I needed him then. I don't "need" him now and I am having trouble putting up with his sarcasm...his need to always be right...the way he can't ever find anything on his own...he can't take care of anything by himself...he always wants to spend more and more money that we don't have...the way he always has something to say about everything. I* think I am going to have to tie him up and gag him if he doesn't quit. but Baby...baby is wonderful...a mama's boy. He is so sweet with his baby kisses. he is beautiful and i love him more than anything in this world. It is insane...i didn't know i could love anything so much. he is awesome. anyway...that is my rant and update for anyone who still comes around.
