Midnight Pearl

I know no one checks this anymore but here is an update. since april i have...had a baby...yeah ok you all knew i was going to so that is no news. september 11th i had Baby Bronco and he is beautiful. He makes me happy...and he is about the only thing that does. I went through a small bout of depression after I had him but that has passed. Anymore I am happy until Bronco cub opens his mouth. I wish he wouldn't speak...he drives me crazy. It's weird though cause the whole time I was pregnant he would ask me if i was going to be one of those women who turn out to only love their baby and hate the father. I thought that was absurd! BUT...he is a retard! he doesn't think...he isn't the nicest guy...and he drives me crazy! I don't know how much longer I can handle him. I need him to go away for a while...take a trip...for like...a week. I don't know how I put up with his shit when i was pregnant crazy...maybe because i felt dependant on him it was easier to deal with the BS...I needed him then. I don't "need" him now and I am having trouble putting up with his sarcasm...his need to always be right...the way he can't ever find anything on his own...he can't take care of anything by himself...he always wants to spend more and more money that we don't have...the way he always has something to say about everything. I* think I am going to have to tie him up and gag him if he doesn't quit. but Baby...baby is wonderful...a mama's boy. He is so sweet with his baby kisses. he is beautiful and i love him more than anything in this world. It is insane...i didn't know i could love anything so much. he is awesome. anyway...that is my rant and update for anyone who still comes around.

ok baby update...here it is. I am 17 weeks and one day today. I don't know what it is yet. I will find out the gender...hopefully...next month on the 11th. I got to watch it kick it's little legs and rub its head and all sorts of stuff. I have th epictures. this really great one of one of its hands...all five fingers...let's just hope that it has another hand. It has two feet and ten toes but no pics of that. I have a GREAT profile pic too! You can see its ear and little nose and all of it. I also have this pic (it was lying face down at first) where you can see its spine and its legs are curled up under it like its crawling and it looks like there is poop comming out of its spine...prolly just a tail bone or maybe left over tail...I didn't see it until last night or else I would have asked the technician about it. They poked me with this HUGE ASS needle and took 5 big viles of blood and it hurt cause she would put one of them vile thingies on the needle thingy and it would push the needle in my arm more...ouch. They will check my sugars and iron and a bunch of stuff with all that blood they stole. I didn't get to meet my doctor but I will on the 11th. I am starting to expand. the other day at work i was wearing normal person clothes (it was casual friday...every other day I wear scrubs) and I had two people tell me I looked pregnant. I wasn't quite prepared for "looking" pregnant at 17 weeks but mom said that she blossomed at 4 months so I guess it's alright. That's all I think.

post number 100...i think. yes. Nothing is happening. I work at a daycare now and have changed my plans for the future yet again. I will work at the daycare for a long time...go to buisness school later on down the road when the time is right...my good friend amanda is going to school to be a teacher and we are going to open a daycare together...one day...in the future...maybe...that's the plan. :) I like it there. the kids are cute and I get to work with broncocubs friends kid. :) she's the bestest little girl in the world...until my little girl is born of course. I've been having freaky dreams...dreamSSSS...about having twins. Like 3 of them. It kind of weirds me out. Broncocub says it would be good cause then he could have one and I could have one and we could raise them seperately and see who does a better job. I told him no...I would win and then I would have to fix his mistakes. haha. I still haven't been to the doctor...waiting on the medicade. hopefully it will be here soon. That is all for now. :)

Hi ya'll. I'm having a baby! *does a song and dance* I'm having a baaaaby, I'm having a baaaaby, I'm having a baaaby! just thought I would let you know. :)

No worries...I'm Here. I haven't been posting much cause I got a job and it's graveyard so I spend my days sleeping and spending time with Broncocub. I like my job...it's alright. It doesn't pay too well. I took my test for the security gaurd thing and passed. Now I just have to wait for my assessment. That's a five hour long process where they do a physical, drug, and some other test and an interview. I don't really believe the five hour thing cause that three hour test only took 1 1/2 hours. I arrived and there were two people already taking the test...they'd been there for about an hour each. I was worried cause I was finished before both of them. Good thing I passed. Anyway...I'll let you guys know about the assessment as soon as it happens. :)

No luck just yet on getting a job. Turned in all the apps I filled out last night. 14 of them...not 15 because the last one was office depot and it was a book. after 14 i didn't feel like writing a book. anyway cross your fingers that one of these will pan out. I'm hoping for something good from Fridays or somewhere like that. It sucks that no one is really hiring and the people who are want you to be old enough to sell alcohol. Not quite there yet. We are going to Broncos sisters tonight for dinner. It will be fun. That's all that happened today. Spent 5 hours doing the application thing. You think I'll get something from 14 apps? I hope so. Hope everyone is having a good day. :)

So today Broncocub and I went on the job hunt somemore. Today we decided to try everywhere on down rogers ave. starting with Michael's. We ended up picking up 15 applications. We are filling them out tonight and turning them in tomorrow, bright and early. Maybe we will get something temporary then. Temporary because all of these jobs are jobs that don't pay so well and end up going no where. We have bigger plans but need something now. I also got an email today saying that I get to move on to phase two of the security guard stage at the airport. What is phase two? Well let me tell you. Phase two is a three hour...yes three hour long test on a computer at the U of A. I take this test wednesday. Hopefully Bronco will get his email tomorrow and be able to take his test wednesday too. That way we aren't stuck at shitty jobs for too long. Look at me...jumping too far ahead. We got to be able to get shitty jobs before we can get un-stuck from them. Cross your fingers for us :)